Test/Anon
When I slow down enough
My mind is free
That’s when the pressure
That’s when the stress
That’s when the memories
Are their worst
I look back at all my choices
Hate how they went
How I turned out
I’m haunted by my doings
And my undoings
My regrets are greater
Than my thanks to give
I’m not ungrateful
I’m realistic
Turn that smile upside down
Embrace you darkness
The light?
It’s even more dangerous
This is honest, with strong emotional clarity. The short, abrupt lines mirror the heaviness you’re describing, and phrases like “my doings and my undoings” stand out. The ending is intriguing, hinting that light can be more frightening than darkness. You could sharpen the flow by tightening a few familiar phrases, but overall it’s a compelling, vulnerable snapshot of inner struggle.
Remind of “unholy and rotten “ by midnight.
Unholy and rotten that's what I am
Unholy and rotten drink the blood of the lamb
Vile the sick stench of decay
Evil there is no other way